I know we had a rocky off and on relationship for most of our years. There are so many ways a child can be hurt, so much damage can be done that cannot be resolved or washed away with time. A lot of resentment, anger, pain that must be internalized, swallowed when you are young, but there simmering a whole life long.
In my memory now and in my heart, I cherish how often we laughed together. There were so many moments of laughter, the day we were out of food (and money I think) and you threw open the cupboard doors with great drama and said, "what shall we have for dinner?" In the cupboard one can of string beans and one can of chili. We both collapsed in laughter. That is a memory I value.
You took away fear. You took away fear by never succumbing to it.
I miss you